"Up Close & Personal"

My mission is to embrace, emulate and illuminate truthfulness and excellence, that I may inspire others, especially the children to do the same.

Why the children? Because I believe in Jose Rizal's words (Philippine National Hero) that they are the future and the hope of our fatherland. Being the future and hope, we need to train, mold and influence, the youth of today, if we dream of having a brighter future.

I also love the song: "let there be peace on earth, and let it begin with me". If we want peace, it has to start from within. Little by little, the peace shall grow and shall be an out of body experience. It shall influence, the basic unit of the society, which is the family, then the community, then the country, and the world. Wait! Stop right there! The world would be along way from here, so let's rewind to family.

I decided to start this site as my legacy for my children mainly.  Also, because it has been a lifelong dream to write a book. In fact, I've started sharing my page last month, in my attempt to write again. Another reason is, after the managerial skills training our office gave us last month, I was given the opportunity to review my mission statement, and assess my self, where I am today.  It's when I realized that, yeah, I've struggled to be truthful and excel all this time, but I have not really went out of my way to inspire others, especially the children. Not the children, because they do not run within my circle now. Come to think of it, even with the children in the family, my nephews and nieces, I have not. That's why, this page is a perfect opportunity, given how "techie" children are today.

Mainly, as I have said, this is for my husband and my children.  In 2009 I had total thyroidectomy and was diagnosed with Papillary Cancer (Pappillary CA, for brevity).  I was told by the doctors, I should be thankful because papillary cancer are easier to manage, since it's slow growing, thus, I will more likely die of other illness than the Pappillary CA.  Last September 19, 2014, I felt a lump on my neck. I scheduled  a neck ultrasound immediately and was given Sept. 22, 2014 as my schedule. But over the weekend, while waiting for my ultrasound schedule, the waiting was killing me.  I cried and was scared that I will die early.  I pity my children, they are so young to be without a mother.  I pity my husband that I will have to leave him.  Worries like how will they manage, who will take care of the mundane mommy things... I've wagered and promised God that I will change. The usual promises when one is again seeing the face of death.  Which is another blog altogether, coz I cannot finish this entry about me if I get side-tracked, again. I have so many stories to tell.  I hope that I will not die. I watched the movie in cable "Safe Haven" and cried buckets altogether because of it. I got the idea there, coz the mommy who died in the flick left letters for her children on their special day like birthdays and weddings.  I would have wanted to make for my children and husband too, but it's like so many letters to make. And I don't want to make the handwritten letters now because it's so time consuming and I have an Insurance Exam coming this Friday and I have to prepare for the bar. And I feel that if I write them letters,  God might construe it that I am ready to die. No God, please, my prayer is, I do not want to leave my children and my husband yet.  I pray that God will give me a very long and fruitful life.

But I will continue to write about my stories, hoping that you, can learn a thing or two from it. Or my children, I know that they get fed-up by my wailing and irritating voice when I teach them some things about life.  Hopefully, if they can just read it here, minus the irate voice, I hope they can learn better if they read it here.

I told my son, Prince about this, and he said "Mom, so everybody can read your message to me?" Drat, I would have wanted it to be private too my son. That way, I will not be susceptible to hurt from being criticized.  Anyway, I'll write you a book, my son. But I want to hit two birds with one stone, so I'm going on with this, hoping that I will be abe to inspire others too, especially the "techie" children of today.